"The greatest relationships are the ones where he called you lame and you just rolled your eyes because you knew he was kidding. The ones where you were comfortable around him because you knew he’d love you no matter what. The ones where love seemed to be the only answer. The ones that made you compromise because it was something you knew you wanted to last. The ones where you accepted what he did because you just wanted to see him happy"

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"At times like this, billy lim wei liang is the best therapy"

i feel that my parents are really too conservative that it pisses me off. you do not threaten a kid while teaching a value. I really am going insane. can you imagine, when i'm like at the stressful exam period, they had to add on about phone bills that they have lectured about 30 times? Seriously? It's the same sentences, same words, same everything. I'm already fucked up enough about my papers they had to add on. And then they spoil my mood. And i lost the mood to study. And i just want to sleep.

it's not like i did something terribly wrong. what's more they repeated about the matter like gazillion times.
why must they do this to me?
plus the problem is with singtel and not me, every motherfucker thing is deducted already so i didn't incur any unnecessary expenses!!

And when i bloody grit my teeth, it obviously shows that i'm trying my best not to talk back or flare up. You didn't have to hit me for that. Every fucking body have feelings. And only the morons hide like 100% of the feelings. I was upset, angry, and very much fucked up and you can't expect me to smile at you right?

Seriously, sometimes i want to move out. Rent the hostel, stay alone, work for my own expenses, and free myself from all these rubbish at home.

fuck. my. life. totally.

Chinese New Year kept me busy

Hello All. It has been a hectic week since it's the start of the chinese new year plus it's also the exam period(major fml) AND it was valentine's day and lastly it was the day I turned 18. Not a big deal though, since there's so many clashes this year particularly, it's fine without any form of celebration. I am still 18. Nevertheless I have to really thank the girls in school for the birthday surprise. It was great because I did not expected anything from them but aw man, life is good with them around. I would like to thank all those that wished me, through the text messages, through emails, through msn, through facebook, a mega thank you i really appreciate it. So chinese new year. It was good, it was the same nothing changed really. The first two days were spent visiting people houses, nothing interesting happened just that I won and lost while gambling. Plus the second day falls on my birthday so I didn't get to celebrate and it sadly doesn't feels like my birthday because of cny. which sorta sucked, but oh wells, life goes on. On the third day I got to have a meal with the two best girls in the world aka the wankers Jamie and Cheryl. It was nice to see them again! As usual, we had fun talking over meals and shopping. I got to meet Barbara's cousins from Australia as well. Luv his accent totally~ Hmm, shopping that day sucked because not all the shops were open and it was boring thus we left pretty early. I got home and there were people visiting. I felt embarrassed because I was greeted by them wearing like colors of the rainbow while i was in black and white. Inauspicious feelingg..... Nevermind, I changed anyway and entertained the kids ^^ Study my night away on Econs and major proud of myself I'm going to end revision! On the fourth day, it was a very failed study day with Cynthia and Keagan at the airport. Shall not elaborate because it was very failed (this apply for me only btw) thanks to the company of my macbook. A huge distraction ): Ugh, right this shall quickly sum up the past few days. I can not wait for exams to end. Then, I will hopefully say hi to braiding my hair, dying my hair, getting my navel pierced(PLZ PLZ PLZ GET THIS DONE), driving lessons and hopefully a trip out of Singapore. I need a break! I RLY WANNA GO BKK LEI MOMMY. ):

right. have a good night while I officially start on management revision. ZzzZZzzZ

sorry i just had to vent this anger here

you always blame me for everything. you always make yourself look like the good person and i'm the one at wrong, i'm the fucking bad guy. whatever that happen to your ex, to your sibling, to me, we all except you were at fault. if that makes you happy, fine.

tsk. poser.

he never knew the kind of torture of jealousy he had put me through. he never will. he could not balance between me and his pals, so he mixed them all up. 3 is a crowd. i am selfish, but tell me, who isn't when one's in love? I erupted like a volcano would. It was so god damn tough to hide the fact that i dislike his pals coming along. No, i hate it. How did 2 of us supposedly multiplied to 10? I rather he left me out. I wouldn't be happy, and I didn't want to ruin his day. So i chose to walk away. But that triggered our heated exchange of words. He was upset, I didn't want to see him upset. No it should not be like this. He should be happy that i left. Why was he angry? I don't know, i did not bother either. By the way he grabbed me, i knew i should not bothered. It was all my fault. Why care? Sigh, life's so complicated.

I really hate it. When there is only the 2 of us, we could do anything we wanted. But when the rest come, we in the end follow them which is god damn lame because they were the fucking ones who joined us right. I wonder, i wonder hard why didn't you feel the sadness in my tone when you asked if they could join?

i am sad. i am very very sad i can cry. i am starting to hate your friends.
and i don't like the way i am behaving to this matter.

life is tough, so is love.

Today is a good day

today, overall, was an exceptionally good day. It's so weird i can't explain this but I felt really good from the moment i woke up. I had in mind what I wanted to wear to school, unlike some other days when i'm sooooo fickle which resulted in me being late for class(not cool) I also managed to catch up with my bus! A pity i didn't see him today on the bus. Thus, my bus journey, was a bore. School was short. This, in another term, means that lessons turn out pretty good. I was exhilarated to bid farewell to the 2 most hated subjects in my life ever! Cynthia, Keagan and I then took a bus down to FEP for chicken rice. No need to say, it was good. Even when i just ate it yesterday! Never a bore. Then we went to Cathay for our movie - Valentine's Day. I LOVE THE MOVIE! it was kickass. the story plot was good enough, i really like how everything intertwine with each other and how the story ended(though it's kind of impossible to break up and then get your new partner in the same day) It was too, one of my favorite cast ever! But i really hate Taylor Swift in the show. She was a total .... bimb. Taylor Lautner? Mega watt cute. Oh the soundtrack was great too! See... my mood today was exceptionally good. After the movie we shopped around town! Keagan bought his new year shirt while i just ogled at this polka dotted dress. ): I really like it! But for 80$? I don't know.. We then got to meet Axel and JX for a while. Walk around some more and then Cynthia and Keagan left! I went to FEP to book appointments for manicure and i really hope i got the best deal around if not T.T The surcharges were insane!!! ADDITIONAL $10?!?! It was -.- I then met Cheryl for a while. I was so happy to see her!!!! I don't know why I relate to her so well she can be like my sister seriously! Plus we think alike! So you know, made to be best friends! ^^ Oooh and I got to see this pretty friend of Barbara's. Shopped around till 2030? Finally left the place after 257361247 incoming calls from daddy and mommy. Hmm, it was a good ride home as well.

Wow. Today was really good. Even my dad didn't rant. What a rare scene! Right, I shall sleep.
Hopefully it will be a good night rest with a bonus of a sweet dream of ... dragons(inside joke!)
Mwah~

I hate girls who try so hard to be somebody else
Get a life.
Just fucking be yourself, posers.

mooooody wednesday

hmm, today everyone said that i was exceptionally moody. and why was that so? - Barbara who else! Nevertheless, he made my day too when we shopped in town. Today for me was a bad outfit day, bad hair day, bad makeup day, bad body shape day, bad meal day, bad everything day.... BUT lunch was goood i had two bowl of chicken rice at FEP some more. Sinful but gooood! We shopped around and i had the intention of buying a top to replace the top i was wearing but in the end because i was being a good girl, i managed to save money! Tomorrow i will be going to town, again.(ikr) for a movie with Cynthia & Keagan and some quick to-do stuffs. Anyway, i went to Rivervale Mall and they have DAISO and DAISO makes everyone happy with their everything $2 so i bought like 8 items and it costed $16 only! I totally splurge on many things that i did not need but who cares! ^^ In love with my new pencil case and headbands! I need to get back to buy socks though i have the crazy urge to wear heels with printed socks to make myself loook like an idiot.

I am idiotic, like that.
omg omg omg i really wonder who reads this space now. Feels so empty!

last day of econs ):

tuesday was really really really good ever since the start of today. this is caused by a stranger in my life. I really like how she appears out of nowhere, and i really dislike how she never appear when i was trying all means to look for her. Nevertheless, today. was. good. enough. ^^ Last economics lecture, last economics tutorial. It's sad because i liked both the subject plus the tutor/lecturer. My favorite subject for now has ended. ): Our tutor was nice she treated us to chocolates at the end of the day. I secretly hoped we could have taken a photo with her, but nobody mentioned so i kept mum. I got home in hope to have a good run after 3 days without exercising, and my body's a failure cas' i got stitches on one of my side and it sucked because the pain was damn sharp! Plus today i was already bitten by an ant which is like 17325641948712907489 times smaller than me in size. Unlucky lor. Worse thing was i was bitten twice, once on my boobs which really hurts and the other on the finger(it bit my finger when i swept it off my chest) What a sad life i lead. Hmm. I am pretty excited for tomorrow because i'm going to study with barbara! ^^

yay me imma sleep at 2300 woah so early today!

i get upset when he go home late. i don't like the feeling of being tucked into bed yet knowing he's still a vagabond in town.
the feeling sucks.

"I miss the period of time when we used to exchange sweet nothings. It’s sad to say that we are so close yet so far now. It may seem like we are talking everyday, but to me you seem so far away. I miss you terribly. Maybe just one day, I just need this one-day for you and me alone. Where we’ll shut ourselves from the outside world, from everything that sounds like trouble, I just need to cuddle inside your arms….. Even after so long, I still love you the same."

smoooth nutz

It’s a Monday again, and tell me, who doesn’t hate Mondays?! I finally attended all lectures and tutorials today! So proud of myself! I should stop skipping lectures before it becomes a deadly habit! Anyway my cough is getting worse each day and it’s annoying because it is dammit unhygienic and I don’t bring my hand sanitizer out I feel so guilty for touching every thing that I touched with my contaminated hands ): Lozenges apparently soothes sore throats but does not cure sore throats. How? What should I do?!
Ugh. i MUST get it cured by chinese new year.

And today, I finally sat down at my study table and pen down revision plans. I will start revision tomorrow and if I am to follow accordingly, I will get my revision done on time! ^^ Hopefully I do not get addicted to any k/t drama shows this time. If not I’m definitely ggfied. Okay. I shall sleep now. I should start sleeping early. I need to get rid of my eyebags as soon as possible. Ciaoz~

if a woman speaks an average of 10000 words per day, my dad speaks an average of 20000.

my legs are breakin aparttttttt

today i was damn tired and bored. from shopping. Wow. A sunday spent with Tiffany and her mom plus my mummy again. This time we went to Bugis and I totally died in Bugis Village. I couldn't find anything to my liking, and even though i was a wearing sleeveless top but it was still damn hot that i had to sweat profusely(yucks), and my shoes got stepped on, now my bow on my shoe is disfigured. ): Today was a long hunt for my CNY dress. Seriously my mom's taste and mine clashes so it took like 8 hours to settle on one dress. She was objecting to all my picks(which i still think is very nice). Hello? Annoying lor. I swear i almost cried when we couldn't find the right one when the time was 2115. I was panicking because today is the last day i can buy because the next few days i have to put in my time for revision. I do not have any more time as next week is definitely gonna be hectic. ): Hmm. And i bought my pink colored earpiece! So happppppieeeee ^^

God, it is 0045AM and there's school at 0900 tomorrow and i'm still awake.
DIE

the weather is nonsense.

today was a mixture of good and bad events. Well it was good because of the fruitful shopping with Tiffany and her mom(my aunt) but it also suck because apparently my dad has PMS today. If he has a talent, it would be spoiling people's mood. He is best at that. I swear. Nevertheless, today was goooooood>bad. My old itouch was replaced with a new set! Now it looks damn sleeek without any scratches(yet) i supposed! Finally got a chance to pester my mom to buy me a hard casing instead. The silicone one that i used for my previous touch sucks because if i place it in a bag with many other things, the casing will come out by itself, allowing air to get inside thus the very ugly "scars" on my touch. ): But now i am happygalgal.com because my touch will forever be chiooooo~~~~ And i almost got myself a pair of earpiece. ALMOST because i couldn't decide between the pink or the electric blue one... I know right, imma bimbo. But i have decided on pink because it's the only color that i won't get sick of for all my life. Right.(I think i elaborate too much today, bear with me). Next, we went shopping around the frequented malls that i'm pretty much sick of. I bought nothing. But when we headed over to FEP, it was pure heaven. Indulgence, indulgence, indulgence(whenever my mum is around, that is) The best shopping loot that day was a peach-colored top that Cheryl showed me the other time we were there. The funny thing was, the other time when i was with Cheryl, i assumed that my mother wouldn't have allowed me to wear it. But today, she actually brought it to me, and said it was gorgeous. I was so exhilarated so yes i bought it! On a side note, i'm very much fucked up......


This was the dress that i could have dance in if not for my dadddd....
Not to say that i'm not contented with my wardrobe, but today i didn't get to buy my lace skater dress from TS.
THANKS TO MY DAD.
He was a ________, that has to disagree with every single shit that i like. It is _________ to have a father like him sometimes because he can be very __________. All the rest who saw me tried the dress said it was really nice but he just had to _____________. So there goes my skater dress. Fill in the blanks. I'll tell you if you get full marks or not.
ZZZZZZZZ. See, i told you he is excellent at making people's day.

OH today i saw many faces. MANY. Here is the list ( I SWEAR TO GOD I DIDN'T LIE)
1) Denise Keller and hot angmoh.
2) Weiling!!!
3)Titus & Gang
4)Gilbert
5)Cherie & Junlong & Parents (SO CUTE!)
6)Donna!
7)Li Teng(Channel U Host)
8)Long-Hair Guy(Inside joke)
9)Mr Loo again -.- i saw him thrice at Ion already

WOAH THAT IS A LOT LOR. beat that.
okay its 1:49AM imma sleep like a pig

what we do best in school

this are one of the reasons why i love going to school.

urghz

I seriously hate to stay home now. It annoys me to the core because my parents are annoying. They forbid me to place my macbook facing the wall, I have to face it out to them so they can see what I am doing. I am 18. 2 years to 20. Hello? Why the fuck are you treating me like a kid who doesn’t know what she’s doing? Cuntz. URGH. I CANNOT WAIT TO BE 21. Anyway, today was good. School was short. Lunch was simple. I send my iTouch for servicing because the audio jacks are faulty hopefully they replace me with a new set! And then I went to meet Junheng for a quick movie. Everybody’s Fine was a good movie that was worth your time, but not your money. I did cried at certain parts because it was pitiful. The story plot was fine, expected but sad. I don’t like movies with bittersweet endings ): So, we shopped around town and guess what I bought! I bought the long-out-of-stock-and-now-it’s-back heart printed tights from Topshop! But the sizes runs out extremely fast it was scary. There were 1 size S and 2 size M available, I took a size M at first. But when I came back exactly 5 minutes later, the size S one was gone!!!!! So we rushed to Wisma in hope that size S is still available and lucky me I took the second last piece left! Happy as a lark now! My mommy then picked me up and then we went home. I went for a jog(I’ve been jogging on a daily basis since Monday btw) and it feels good to have sore muscles! Shows that I’ve exercised instead of lazing around.. Hehe ^^ Hmm, had a light dinner and now here I am. That’ll sum up my day today! J It scares me to realize that tomorrow is Friday alreadyyyy.

And I miss my baby boy so much today I wish he was in the movie theatre instead because I was freezing and I needed a tight hug. It’s been 1 year plus ever since we caught a movie together bb. When’s our next? AND I CRAVING FOR DING TAI FUNG. (hints to Barbara)

you make life a bitch for me

I know I haven’t been updating again but this time, projekz are really taking a toll on me, and my body clock is fucking screwed. I know I can choose to finish it earlier but oh well, the last-minute-gene is in me. Thank god we’re done and over with this semester’s projects. Say hello to 8 hours/day sleep again! I was out with Cheryl a few days back and retail therapy is forever the best kind of therapy in the world. My only shopping loot that day was a dress that I very much like! But it was fun shopping with my favorite girl, everything feels so relaxed and real. Hehe I cannot wait for manicure and pedicure (though I just painted my toenailzzz-.-) Hmm. Monday was really good we went for school for nothing if self-dismissal is counted. >After I got to meet my baby boy and it was a really simple but good afternoon spent with him. He never fails to make me feel so comfortable with myself. I love that afternoon because he was really sweet!!! Super rare moments y’knw! Hehe and then it was today which was hell for me because my parents found out about our relationship again. It was pretty much fucked up you see you never understand how they can actually make the biggest deal out of nothing. Seriously, it’s not like I’m pregnant or I’m on drugs but they’re acting like I commited these crimes. YOU GET WHAT I MEAN? Sometimes I hate my family a lot. I hate how they turn me into someone that is always running on thin ice almost all my life. Seriously have you ever felt fucking stress when you are on your way home? I always feel very vexed and stressed when I head home which is not a “home” in that sense. Yes there can be very happy moments but I really cannot stand it when my parents’ thinking is super conservative. I hate my life today. Thank god for bella and my 3 girls in school plus my eyecandy(LOL) if not I wouldn’t have survive today. Sometimes, I wish she just shoot me. I abhor going through the SAME "lectures" for years over and over again. Ugh. Today is the worst day of 2010 so far. You can fml upside down. TYVM.