he never knew the kind of torture of jealousy he had put me through. he never will. he could not balance between me and his pals, so he mixed them all up. 3 is a crowd. i am selfish, but tell me, who isn't when one's in love? I erupted like a volcano would. It was so god damn tough to hide the fact that i dislike his pals coming along. No, i hate it. How did 2 of us supposedly multiplied to 10? I rather he left me out. I wouldn't be happy, and I didn't want to ruin his day. So i chose to walk away. But that triggered our heated exchange of words. He was upset, I didn't want to see him upset. No it should not be like this. He should be happy that i left. Why was he angry? I don't know, i did not bother either. By the way he grabbed me, i knew i should not bothered. It was all my fault. Why care? Sigh, life's so complicated.
I really hate it. When there is only the 2 of us, we could do anything we wanted. But when the rest come, we in the end follow them which is god damn lame because they were the fucking ones who joined us right. I wonder, i wonder hard why didn't you feel the sadness in my tone when you asked if they could join?
i am sad. i am very very sad i can cry. i am starting to hate your friends.
and i don't like the way i am behaving to this matter.
life is tough, so is love.
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