And true blood > twilight hands down.

thanks to Shawn. thanks to Keith. thanks to Thomasz. I.am.hooked.

why billy?

what do you mean why billy? simply, i love him for who he is :)

Ask me anything

what make up do you use? i see many pictures that make you look alot fairer than you really are..i am dark too & i wan to look fair too.

REALLY?! I never realised! I think it's the lighting or flash, but if you're interested, I use Estee Lauder foundation, some japanese brand mascara, MAC eyelash plumper, Shu Uemura eyeliner, MAC blusher and Dior Lipstick for long days out. If not, i'll just apply some japanese brand BB Cream! :>

Ask me anything

it's like your heart has so many spaces for different people, it's like when i'm gone, you still have many other pieces pumping more blood to make up for your loss. but for me, you took my whole heart. it's like if you're gone, i will die.

it's really different. and it's sad.

do you think you are born in a rich family?

i, honestly, will think i am lucky enough. :)

Ask me anything

hey what size are you wearing for your bra?

hahahah i really hope you're a female. i wear size 34B :)

Ask me anything

do you srsly think you're a popular girl? like srsly. don't lie.

honestly, i think i was in secondary school, but for now. nope :)

Ask me anything

Ask Me Anything

Somebody asked me a question on formspring and I think i pressed delete instead of send button. now here goes:

Q: Do you srsly think you're popular? like seriously. don't lie

A: I honestly think i was in secondary school? but for now, nope :)

i can't help it. i love myself.

Fall in love

When in Rome, fall in love. And this is not just a line from the movie I watched today. I really have to say Rome is like one of the best place for honeymoons. Anyway, the story plot was average, but I have to say it's an enjoyable show to catch! Basically, it's hilarious and tell me who in the world can resist Josh Duhamel please?! He's fucking gorgeous and he's a hot bod. Hmm..



Fergie, indeed, is one lucky woman to have him for all her life.

Anyway, my mom's away and I guess i sorta needed this separation from her because she's been telling me what to do every hour every day and it made me a touchy person recently. I'm not kidding. It is this serious. Sigh....

And goodness, its 3AM in the morning and i'm blogging.

-.- dammit i'm screwing my own body.

One of my favorite Friends episode!

UNAGI is a state of total awareness.

Why so superficial?

HAHAHA i believe everyone is someway or another?
But this only applies to pretty girls with pretty character :)

Ask me anything

which type of girls are you attracted to? erm i know you have a boyfriend, i am curious only.

hahahaa. I really like girls with their own personality and i'm sorry this might make me sound like a superficial person but i'm usually attracted to pretty faces. :/

Ask me anything

eenie meenie miney mo

I have been listening to Jayesslee's covers on Youtube the whole afternoon. They had someway or another inspired me to pursue Christianity even more than i ever wanted. The passion they have, is amazing. Really, and one of their Korean Covers actually made me cry. You should check them out.
Hmm.. attempted to pamper myself with my own manicure but as you can see, it was an attempt. Ah wells. I shall head down to the manicurist tomorrow because I really really want pink nails with white polka dots and the depressing thing is that I can't do my right hand myself!

Isn't this like the cutest set of nails ever?

Hmm, I can't wait ^^

- Ever wonder why I feel a little jealous inside when I think that someone else can please you more than I can? It’s probably my insecurities acting up a bit, because I understand the fact that I’m not the most beautiful, funniest, fun person you’ll ever meet.

i love oversized sunglasses

Haven't been up to anything lately. Life has been mundane but peaceful. I'm over the very very bad nights i had last week. I'm so glad it's over. Seriously, crying, isn't my thing at all. Hmm. Everyday's pretty routined. I wake up at 12, have brunch, watch the television, surf the net, take a nap, have dinner, surf the net and sleep at 3. It's unhealthy, i know that. It's amazing how my complexion improved thanks to the sufficient sleep after the exams period, but because i'm sleeping really late, my eye bags are getting very bad. And i hate it that i'm so tanned damn it. I want to look mix or chinese please.

i am not racist and i mean no offence but i had enough with people saying i look Malay. It is annoying because I am not, and i'm sick of explaining that my mother is Indonesian CHINESE and i don't understand why i look non-chinese. This sucks, big time. I need to be fair, fair, fair.

For the first time in my life, I'm actually concerned with how dark I am. Spamming sun block everytime i leave the house, even for a jog -.- but yes, this is how serious i am when i say i want to be fairer. And i've pleaded with my mum to buy me Shishedo's Whitening Package, I know it's expensive but i heard it works wonder. I want to see myself as fair as Cheryl

Bye

i can't wait for Thursday. i can't wait for my mum to go overseas.

"what a shame we all became such fragile, broken things"

prove me wrong. show me that we're worth all these fights.

sucks to know how easy you can actually affect my mood. it's like yesterday was the lowest point of my life, and today you actually tune it back to normal.

is it that i'm really very easy to pacify? or is it that you just have that special ability, to throw me on cloud nine for a second, and pull me to hell the next?

why so emo?

because i'm having a very difficult time now?

Ask me anything

desperate for your attention

first time and last time, never will again.

i give up

don't you still get it? i don't want to ruin anything

things are better left unsaid.

Trust is like a mirror. You can fix it if it's broken. But you can still see the cracks in that motherfucking reflection.

today is 14 March 2010

today i bought a casing for my phone. for months with the phone, i was determined to buy a pink casing, but because it was so difficult to find, i bought red today. today i bought portable speakers for a good deal. It is pink in color, and I'm in love. Today i cried on the bus about everything and anything. It was even more upsetting when the person beside me switched seats. :/ i felt so discouraged in life.

today i created tumblr again. But that space is solely for beautiful pictures and quotes.

that's it.

i see this and i'm sad. why?

“But who can say what’s best? That’s why you need to grab whatever chance you have of happiness where you find it, and not worry about other people too much. My experience tells me that we get no more than two or three such chances in a life time, and if we let them go, we regret it for the rest of our lives.”

—	Haruki Murakami

what kind of music you listen to? and which band you like most? (:

Hey. I listen to all sorts of music according to my mood. But i'm always into indie music! Hmm as for my favorite band, I don't have my number one, but i have a few bands that i really like! BoysLikeGirls, Faber Drive, Keane, Death Cab for Cutie, The Killers etc. :>

Ask me anything

gees i don't like to cry to sleep at all ): i need your voice, your warmth, your arms, your hands, your legs to curl up with mine, your nose against mine, your everything. i need your presence. i need you here with me to fill up the emptiness within me

it's.getting.out.of.control

this is much more painful than i expected. i want to cry but i can't. i feel like throwing up. the emotions are overwhelming. i can't do this alone.

have to learn to be independent as soon as possible.

i guess, things like that are better left unsaid.

i rather suffer in silence, than you treat me like that

“There’s moments in your life that make you, that set the course of who you’re gonna be. Sometimes they’re little, subtle moments. Sometimes, they’re not…Bottom line is, even if you see ‘em coming, you’re not ready for the big moments. No one asks for their life to change, not really. But it does. So what are we, helpless? Puppets? No. The big moments are gonna come. You can’t help that. It’s what you do afterwards that counts. That’s when you find out who you are.”

—	Whistler (Max Perlich) of “Buffy the Vampire Slayer

Though i always avoid smoking, i'd like to try these some day.

Brush my teeth with a bottle of jack

Thrift shopping with Cheryl was fail because we didn't thrifted really. And my legs are damn sore from all the walking today. Best part of the day was that we got to see Adam Lambert in person and unexpectedly, he is actually quite cute! Hmm. Pretty much a good day of shopping with Cheryl though we were both exhausted most of the time. ^^ Home at 12. And i actually painted my nails at like 12AM but worth it, worth it. LuvMyNailzNao. Oh goodness, my brother's friend is over for a sleepover and he's super funny. I can't seem to ignore him :/


zzzzzz tomorrow another day at IT Fair finally. :>

What's your favourite food?

hmm, i really can't provide a name for this, but i exceptionally like thai cuisine! But actually i like all kinds of food, i don't have a preference. I like the taste of spice and saltiness! Hmm as long as my tastebuds like it, i like it!

Ask me anything

Hey, i think you look pretty. (:

Hey! hahahahahaha i really really don't think so! But thanks! I really appreciate this :>

Ask me anything

hahahahahah MY LIFE IS AVERAGEEEEEE

i think the most recent question that i've received is quite hilarious... oh hold on, it's not even a question, it's a statement
hahahahahahah fyi, this kinda thing don't bother me. Rather entertaining actually, I'd say.

you look bitchy

awww, thanks, but i'm not :>

Ask me anything

i am anti anti-justin bieber

ewwwwwwwwww to people who used to admire justin bieber as kidraulh and now try so hard to put him down

if fashion is your hobby, who is your fashion idol?

hahhahaha sorry but i do not have a specific name to provide you. I get inspirations from everywhere. not only famous people dress well you see! there are many on the street that i reflect on! But here are a few names if you're interested... Olsen Twins definitely, Lindsay Lohan, Alexa Chung, Taylor Momsen, Nicole Richie, Rumi Neely, Erin Wasson and this'll never end actually!

Ask me anything

what r ur hobbies?

shoppin'! definitely! I'm a fan of fashion, never boring. I like to indulge in korean or taiwan dramas for hours as well! photograpgy, reading... these few..

Ask me anything

formspring.me

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/jazzmintzz

what is your race?

hahahahahahaha i get this all the time. I'm pure chinese. My dad's a SG chinese and my mom's an indonesian chinese. I think i got my features from my grandgrand dad :/

Ask me anything

remember this? hahahahahhaa i have two names in mind >:)

nobody said it was easy

"I guess i need some time. To erase everything bad that happened between us, to rid off the hatred within me, and to love you as though none of the heartbreaks i went through happened. It isn't easy, but i will try. All, for you."

12 March 2010

I woke up today in a mess, frantic to know my results and all. i skipped brushing my teeth, turn on my computer and log in to the student portal page. I stayed on the website, refreshing every 5 minutes because i was worried for my results. I was confident that I had to take the supplementary paper for Business Accounting, because for the whole semester, i played around with this module and i took it very very lightly and i deserve it if i fail. But thanks to God, life is good. I passed my BA2. I'm a happy girl. Plus i actually earn an A for Microeconomic which i'm very proud of. :> Hmm, now i can relax and enjoy the rest of my holidays!!!! ^^ omg i totally wasted yesterday and today staying at home. My plans for IT Fair is effin' screwed! ZZZZ. Sunday it shall be then. Yay i can't wait for thrift shopping with Cheryl tomorrow!! ^^



hmm i miss cheryl and jamie so much. the two best girlfriends i can ever have!!!!!

you're bigger than an ant and i'm bigger than you.

omg bitchy mode turn to maximum

this isn't good.

i'm sorry but no, my hatred have not subside.

i will kick the mudabitches arses, bitch

"Guys are all jerks. they all are in one way or another."

This is weird but...

It's weird that I want to do this, but if you ever wonder what kind of boys i am usually attracted to.............
they're guys who are funny-funny and not lame-funny, guys with scars, tall guys with a nice v-shaped body, guys with a nice voice(not too high pitched nor low pitched please), guys with a gentleman figure and of course, guys with the mega watt smile.
i am very much attracted to bad boys > good boys ( ikr, this is so weird )







and it's funny how billy fits into a lil' bit of all that i find appealing.
^^

?

have you ever experience something that left such a great impact on you that emotions are overwhelmed when you are reminded of it again?

i have. it feels like a hole in the heart which can never be filled again.

it's that kind of misery i'm going through.

I want the world to see you be with me

i am mther tanned! and this is not good. not good at all ):
Today, it was beach day. Initially, we thought there were 7 of us in total. Then in the end, those who turned up were Cynthia, Keagan and I. They were a couple btw. So it idiotically make me look like a gooseberry -.- I really hate situations like these, and I really hate it when people back out the last minute. Seriously, fuck the people who agreed and don't turn up. Not like you met with an accident or what right? They just don't bother to put in the effort. It's not that i'm being mean here, but seriously, i had enough with people like that. -.- and i'm not pointing fingers here so don't anyhow anyhow come and make a fool and acknowledge yourself here. TYVM.
Hmm...so, I faked my suntan session in a sense that I covered my face with a towel in hope that it won't get tanned at all. I know this is damn lame but I really can't help it. As y'all can see, I'm tanned enough and I want to be fair. Really, i want to be fair. After a lil bit of by-the-beach time, we decided to head over to Azzura Beach Bar. It was a naize environment. Had a long dip in the pool and i blamed this for getting me tanned. >:( Even though i tried very hard to hide in the shaded areas, but i still got tanned!!! ): Boohoohoozxdcxzx ): Nevertheless, we had fun and Axel was nice enough to join us later in the day. I was first to leave because i went to meet Billy! Meeting Billy always make me happy! We had a filling dinner together, followed by a lil' bit of window shopping. We then took a train back home and I'm damn tanned.
Motherfisher. _/_

Bye.

i'm not trying to rewind

tuesday tuesday tuesday = boring boring boring
today i spent my time with my mummy! First we went to the driving centre in hope to register for basic theory test and also open an account for private study but i forget my IC and the place closes at 1600PM and we reached at 1630PM so that means we have to come back another day. My jaw dropped totally when i learned that they closes so early -.- After we went to Thompson for some grocery shopping, Haato Ice Cream an some Yamaha time. I bought Wasabi Seeds today, i know to some it's disgusting but i love it! I love how the taste is so overwhelming at first, and then slowly tone down which is tasty! Hehehehehehehe.. We went home for dinner and that's it. that's my tuesday for you.


anyway i finally got the contact number to my future dentist for my braces!
I can't wait. It's so funny that i'm already thinking about the colors!!!!

i really hate menses. it's the period of time when i fuckin' can not control my emotions. it's in a huge mess.

she's a sad woman

"never will expect anything from you anymore"

"i long for the freedom of one who's single."

-Annonymous

if she holla' let her go

Olla~ How's your sunday? It was family day for me though my brother wasn't present since he went for Paramore, but still i spent some quality time with my parents! We went to Chinatown since my mother had to get some herbs before flying back to Indonesia in a few weeks time for her relatives. Well, I secretly love chinatown. I really like the feeling of how i can totally camouflage as a tourist (i know this sounds stupid..), well every time i visit Chinatown i feel like i'm traveling. Hmm, so while the parents went for herbs shopping, I had some time for myself. I tune in to my ipod, put on my shades and just roamed the streets. And the best part of today was i bought two dresses probably my favorite dresses and also the cheapest dresses i'll ever have. Since i bought two for $25 only it was well spent :> Freakin' happy as a lark I was. But i could have been happier if my dad had agreed to buying me the pair of Raybans Wayfarer Polarized. I was almost there clinching a deal but because my dad was so -.-, i bade farewell. BUT IN THE END MY DAD SAYS THE NEXT TIME HE COMES HE WILL BUY so no need to be sad :) I can't wait for my first pair of authentic wayfarers since i have like >5 wayfarers-inspired and i can't stop buying... Hmm, back to today, we had dinner at this Thai Chinese restaurant which served awesome tomyam seafood soup and fried chicken wrapped in pandan leaf!!! Ultimate favorite. After dinner = destination-home. boring. hmm....

Two Tone Ankle Length Dress <:

Floral Printed Ankle Length Dress ( FAVORITE ) :>

nice or nice? ^^

tomorrow is monday again and everybody hates monday. i wish nobody calls me up for a job interview. i feel like bumming around my whole holidays, not working. i don't know why but i feel exceptionally lazy :/

ugh, i hate myself sometimes

If you are granted a wish, what would it be?

to go back to secondary school days. life is too complex now

Ask me anything

formspring.me

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/jazzmintzz

busy busy busy busy busy

the first week of my holidays turn out very well. Everyday is occupied and I like that cos I really hate rotting at home. Hmm, but going out almost every day also equals to spending $$$ every day. Hmm, not good not good. Today is a saturday and i'm home early. Even earlier than my brother for the first time. I'm being a good girl. But i was welcomed home without dinner. I was damn sad i almost cried because i was famished. I just ordered McDelivery though! But it'll take almost an hour!!! >:( Nvm. I went out with tiewster today. Very happy because somebody's attached!!!! Hehehehehehe. Like finally! ^^ Shopped around town as usual for a couple of hours and she had to leave. Hmm. I shopped alone for another hour or so and left for home. Bad bad trip home. I did not know why i was so sad but oh well.. zzzzzzzz

right. I shall watch another chick flick tonight!!!!! ^^

oh hi, my planned hiatus worked. So i was away from this space so long thanks to exams. Exams can suck cock seriously. Especially when you're the kind of last minute worker. It sucks to be me, because i always am deprived of sleep, and i'm lethargic during the papers and then the cycle repeats the next day. So anyway, good that it's all over, although i'm very very not confident about some of my papers. :/ hope all goes well is the only thing i can do now.

hmm it's the holidays and i had a great start by dying my hair honey golden blonde(it's the name of the color). I wouldn't say I like it neither would i say i dislike it, i think i look just fine. Anyway the color was chosen by my mother because it was the best agreeable color between the two of us. Of course i wanted something so much lighter like ash brown or copper blonde with streaks... but nah uh, my mom is conservative. oh wells. something really weird is i love my hair texture so much better now it feels really healthy after all the chemicals. Ya see the irony? -.-

Hmm. I need a job. But the urge to have a job this holidays is declining because i am damn lazy. Sighh. I need a job that requires minimum brain cells and maximum slack time available. This is so lame. I hate to be jobless during holidays.

Right enough said. I'm tired I shall update more frequently and I'm opening up my tumblr back again. I can not resist beautiful scripts nor pictures.