Wow time fucking flies. The year that I dreaded the most(doomsday believer here lol) has ended? I can't comprehend guys. I really can't! Am caught in so much mixed emotions right now it's weird. Surprisingly 2012 wasn't too bad! Mostly cos' the world didn't end lol. But that also means it's time for srz businezz and like.. yknow'.. start having thoughts about the future. MEH
I'd really prefer living by day to day. So what am I hoping for 2013....?
Nothing much. Comfortable with letting it come the way it should. Cos I believe everything happens for a reason yup.
One thing though, I'm still quite a puzzle to myself. Sometimes, I think I know myself too well while other times, not so. I don't understand. Like.... I feel 'B' to a certain subject when I thought 'A' should be the right way to feel. I don't know how to explain myself..... but the undeniable fact is, emotions catch you off guard. For me at least. Just when you think you're capable of dealing with some things, reality breaks you and how shameful that you have to learn you're actually that pathetically weak. So year by year, I've been finding out little bits here and there about me. Some of which I may love, while some of which I honestly hate. But I know that it's the way that I am, and I can't do shit to change cos' it's the way I feel. Plus, you can't be flawless, you can't be perfect. That doesn't make sense.
Only thing I can do is try to deal with my flaws differently aite? Instead of letting it get to me so easily, why not practise more mind over matter?
This I guess, shall be my new years resolution whoohoo.
Be a better person that I know I can be.
It's not easy but, watch me.
Muahaha
Cheers to a fucken' new year guys.
