"That feeling when you just want to forget everything and curl up into someone's arms"

Your arms, please

But baby, can we make up now? Cause I can't sleep through the pain..... #nowplaying

i'm so bored i'm considering to slice some gingers

It'd be different if you were the one chasing. I guess it's true that the one that loves more gets hurt more.

Obamaself tonight

some comforting words would be nice....

Need you to need me.

Need a jug of beer, one stick or two
And you.

Might just turn out to be the happiest ending for everyone.

At the end of the day, I'm only one big step closer to proving myself that I never will be good enough for anybody. Not my parents, let alone you. 

It sucks to know how much unhappiness I am capable of causing. 

I might as well just die.

And the itch to hurt myself comes again.
It's just fucking crazy how all the pain seems to overflow.

Oh wait, I forgot how you feel is always more important than how I feel.

Understand, don't assume.

Just because I played on the piano along with her means I'm happier with her?

What fuckery?

do you ever feel like breaking down?
do you ever feel out of place?
like somehow you just don't belong, no one understands you.
do you ever wanna run away?
do you lock yourself in your room with the radio on turned up so loud, no one hears you screaming?
no, you don't know what it's like when nothing feels alright,
you don't know what it's like to be like me...

to be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark.
to be kicked when you're down, to feel like you've been pushed around.
to be on the edge of breaking down but no one's there to save you...
no, you don't know what it's like..
welcome to my life.

I know I should never inflict pain on myself but..... I need somewhere else to hurt even more rather than my chest, my heart.

I am stupid. 

I'm really scared

Do you.... still love me as much?
No wait, do you.... even love me now?

This hurts so bad I really miss lying on your naked chest, nicely fitted in your arms, under your blanket in the heavy rain..... I miss you





Fuck la, 2 days are enough to kill me inside out......

Can't wait.

I don't get it

"Because when I get too happy, something bad will always happen."

True story

And then I question myself again

Am I causing you too much hurt? Am I being too selfish?
Am I making you happy at the very least?
I know I'm not good enough, no doubt am a failure too.
So am I...... am I really worth you?